I remember my first firefighter’s funeral. As a twenty-some
year-old rookie fireman, it was a very poignant moment for me, but one I felt I
had to witness because, for me, I felt it came with the territory. Silently,
though, I hoped and prayed it would never be me. Yet you simply had to honor
your dead, and there was a certain solemnity that went with it. After all, they
had given all they had to give. I guess, at that moment, I felt that I would
get acclimated to such events. That as time went on, the funerals would not be as
moving as that first one was for me. That, somehow, you would harden to the
tragedy that can only come out of such events. I was wrong. They only got worse
from that day forward, because there was an accumulative action to my grief.
Firefighters belong to a great fraternity. Whether you’re fighting fires in the
heart of New York City, a small town in the back roads of America or somewhere
in the wild forests of the West, you have one purpose in mind; to do what you
can to safeguard the people and their property, and to always remember the oath
you took to do just that. For the
most part, you are always revered for your efforts by others, but never more
than when you didn’t come back to the station, and never, ever, more than when
you paid that ultimate price.
Death is no stranger to firefighters. Thankfully, not often
is it one of your own, but you do have to deal with it all the time. You have
had to press your ear to the blackened, burnt lips of victims to try and hear
those last words—coming from throats that are scorched beyond being able to
talk any more. You have begged someone pinned in the front seat, of a crushed
and mangled car, to stay with you for just a few more minutes so you can get
him or her to the hospital. You have done C.P.R. until your arms ached, and all
the time praying this drowned child in your arms would just please breath and
live again because you can’t stand hearing her mother’s screams in the background.
There are no strangers in this trade, for the minute you were called they
became your victims to care for, and it got up close and personal in a hurry.
Somewhere in Arizona, hundreds of hearts are broken. Moms
and Dads have lost their sons, wives have lost their soul mates, and the nightmare
they prayed would never come to visit their house, is now here. Children, who
only days ago tried on their dad’s boots and helmet and wanted their picture
taken, can’t understand why daddy is never coming home. In the tiny town of
Prescott, where the ‘Granite Mountain Hotshots’ came from, a black cloud has
descended over the station they left that day. All that’s left are their
vehicles in the parking lot and their possessions in their lockers. Flowers and
memorials sit outside the fence in silent respect.
Sometime in the future, nineteen rookie firefighters will
once again fill the Hotshot ranks. For you see, fire takes no holiday and waits
for no one. Life—as that fire station once knew it—will begin again. Then,
bells will ring and a plume of smoke on some far away mountain will be calling
them in once more. On the hill where they died, new plants will have bloomed
and new houses will be going up. Soon, no one will know there was ever a fire.
No one, that is, but the Granite Mountain Hotshots and those who loved them.