WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WORLD

                                    

I have always been intrigued with this place we call our earth. You see there is no other place like it known to man and believe me they have been looking. You think about all of the balances and safe guards this planet came with, that make living here possible and it is mind-boggling. The ozone layer that protects us from the suns ultraviolet rays that would cook us otherwise. The magnetic field that originates in the earth’s core that shields us from deadly space radiation. How the earth is tipped on its axis that gives us the seasons of the year and how it rotates to give us the hours of the day. How it moves in perfect cinch with the sun and the moon just far enough away to keep us from roasting and yet close enough to keep from freezing. How the plants and trees absorb the poison gases we give off and give us back life sustaining oxygen and to think it’s gone on for millions of years.

Then came man and in his infinite wisdom, he was able to find heavy metals and fossil fuels and start an industrial revolution by inventing electrical power and gasoline powered engines. Smelting ores into different metals and inventing plastics from petroleum and glass from sand. There was refrigeration to cool our homes and preserve our food and natural gas to heat our homes. Often with some side effects for this planet we didn’t fully understand and probably don’t understand yet. We invented miracle drugs to cure illnesses and chemicals to control everything from weeds to insects and yet we still didn’t understand what it was doing to our earth and probably don’t fully understand it today either but we use them anyway.

Then we blew a hole in the ozone layer with chlorofluocarbons and had to find a repair for it and it looks like we might have. But then came more problems with no easy fixes like that. Wells are pumping poisoned drinking water from chemicals and drugs we excreted and rivers, fed by runoff that flows into the gulf have created a gulf dead zone hundreds of square miles where nothing lives. Smog and air quality problems are sickening many and changing, weather patterns. There are fixes for much of this but they run up against the greed that exists from those who benefit from selling those products that are causing all of the problems. They hire legions of lawyers and buy off politicians while admitting no fault, even in the face of over mounting evidence. They know they are wrong, they just don’t care and they are going to milk this cow for all its worth and in the meantime the beat goes on.

The earth is becoming a ticking clock and we can stop and rewind it or let it run down. To those younger people who will inherit this mess, the day will come when you will curse the generations who lied and cheated and looked the other way, all in an effort to make a buck with no self-guilt for ruining this earth for the ages, when there were answers for all of those problems if you only looked for them-- there was no money in those answers however for the guilty people who were involved in the sickening of the earth so they rejected them. Someday when man is gone the earth will again heal itself and soon there will be no trace left of the people who inherited this great blue planet and elected to destroy it, instead of taking care of it. No one wants to write like this but the truth needs to be told.

JIM

MY FRIEND JIM

When I was a young boy, and in my early teens, my parents wouldn’t let me have a dog. So I did the next best thing and I adopted someone else’s dog. The dogs name was Jim and his owner paid no attention to him, so I took over the job. Jim was an outside dog who was street smart so he had the run of the neighborhood and when he wanted company he always looked me up. When I got up in the morning for my paper route, there he would be in the yard waiting for me and when my dad came home at night he would quietly disappear, knowing he wasn’t welcome, although that changed, the longer he hung around.

None of my brothers or sisters ever paid much attention to Jim. I guess I was the dog lover in the family. Jim was a mutt and something of a cross between a German Sheppard and a Husky. He was stout and strong and even on the coldest winter nights he would curl up in a ball under our back-steps outside and sleep sometimes. I put some straw under there for him and as long as I wasn’t feeding him food from the house or letting him in the house, Dad dropped his opposition to him. I never fed him much but he stayed in good shape so his owner must have been putting food out for him, The man just didn’t seem to care where he was or maybe because he saw me with his dog so much, he was just happy someone else was paying attention to him.

I had a morning paper route so every morning at six I had to get up and go seven blocks uptown to the paper office and get my papers and then deliver them. It took me about an hour and a half and Jim always went with me. Many of my customers had dogs too, so Jim would help himself to their dog’s food while he was there, if it was outside. If their dog bothered me, Jim took them to task and he was a formidable fighter. In the winter when my hands got cold Jim would always let me warm them up in his fur and his tail was always wagging when he saw me.

Jim was well known around the neighborhood-- in fact around the town. I eventually switched to an evening paper route so I would go to the paper office after school and Jim was always there waiting for me. Fran, the man who ran the office, said he appeared every day about a half hour before I did and would lie on the sidewalk and wait for me. Jim seemed to know what time it was, but he didn’t know what day it was, so on Sundays he went up to the office too but seeing no one there he would go back home. He had to cross a busy highway to get there, but he always watched for traffic. Then I got a job and had to quit delivering papers and Jim would wander over to see me if I was outside, but he seemed to come less and less because I was never home.

Then one night while we were eating supper we heard a gunshot and went outside to investigate. There was Jim, lying on the sidewalk dead. There was a new cop on the police force and seeing Jim loose, he thought he was a stray so he shot him. While I knelt crying over Jim, my Dad lashed out at that cop and he was lucky to not been arrested for what he said to him. But I remember one sentence to this day, that dad told that cop, “You just killed the best friend that boy ever had.”

A BOOK

                                                          

Tonight I am finishing up my thirteenth book. Oh, it won’t be out for a while. The story may be complete but now comes all of the finishing touches. Hopefully while Pat and I are in Arizona there will be time for that. This is something fulfilling and yet sad for me to write-- “The end,”-- to this story. Sad because you see, it might just be the end of my stories. Somehow those creative juices I have enjoyed over the years are drying up and there are just no more stories to write. Only time will tell.

I’d like to think that this was one of my better books. After all time has taught me a lot of lessons about writing and story telling and hopefully I’ve been paying attention. There is something so unique about writing a story. To create all of those characters, name them, bring them to life and flesh them out and make them as real as life itself. As for the story itself, well there are very few stories left to tell that haven’t been told, over and over again. I guess the only difference comes in the signature of the author and how the story is told.

I remember as a young boy reading Hemmingway’s “Old Man and the Sea. I am going to read it again this winter, some sixty years later and this time I probably won’t be as intrigued with the story as I was back then because I know how it ends. No, this time my interest will be with the author and the way he wrote. There is a way to tell a story and there is a way to help you live the story through that writing and old Ernest Hemmingway was one of those, who had you squirming in your chair when he told you that story of Santiago and that big fish.

There is just so much you can do about shaping the world around you in real life. Not that that should stop any of us from trying to make this a better world for all of us. But a fiction author has the ways and means of making life right again, at least in the context of his/her story. Yes, its limited to what is between the covers of that book but sometimes, from that story comes the inspiration to make the story come to life in the real world. We are all dreamers of sorts but some people let those dreams die and some people live their dreams out and miracles happen and it’s all because of something they once dreamed up, believed in and became a doer. You see just dreaming of it isn’t enough. At some point you need to be a doer too. They go hand in hand.

Trying to succeed in life has always been a struggle and not just for writers. It is for any job. No matter the vocation, someone is always doing you one better but that is good for you if your paying attention because it keeps you trying harder if you take the challenge. Then again, maybe you’re right where you want to be in life anyway and you don’t want for anything more and if your happy, isn’t that what life is all about? But back to the book, for every once in a while someone comes along with a story or book that is so unique, so different. Not just a new spin on an old story but truly a new story, no one has ever heard before and I’m hoping this story of mine will be like that. Or at the very least--- I hope you will think so. 

TRUST

                                                          

Sometimes I like to kid my significant other and consequently the level of trust she has for me has taken a toll. Maybe it’s the consequences I deserve for not always being genuine but yet, I have too much fun with it to abandon it. I know that she knows that it’s all in fun and I mean no harm.

There is however, a much more critical matter and a serious lack of trust in our society today that is no laughing matter and it is hurting our relationships with each other and in the case of our government, with other countries. Without trust you have nothing. Trust is most often lost when you don’t keep your word.  As when we asked Russia for proof that they aren’t breaking treaties, when we know they are, and they know that we know they are, and they still say they aren’t-- well where do you go from there? England doesn’t trust the European union and vice versa; we don’t trust China and right back at us. Our leaders say one thing to the voters and do another and then they say “just trust me on this.” We should say, “Fool me once shame on me. Fool me twice shame on you.”

As a member of the Catholic faith my trust in the very church I profess to believe in has been shaken by the allegations that young people were abused and cover-ups existed. A breach of trust that is very egregious. I think we all knew priests were human and those things could take place but to have their bosses cover it up?  Most of it happened seventy years ago so that part of it may have been largely stopped but the cover-ups are still coming out and so much hurt could have been prevented by being transparent a long time ago. Think also of the tobacco companies and their lies and cover-ups about their products.

There was a time when you trusted your scout leader, your neighbor guy, your teachers and your Sunday school teacher to mentor you, not harm you. There was no need back then to have another person shadowing them all day just to verify that they did nothing wrong. As a young man in my teens, I used to hitchhike to the river to go swimming with my buddy and we never thought once that anyone would harm us. There was a golf course right across the road from the river and strangers were more then happy to give us a ride and they never thought that we would harm them either. But now day’s little kids are made to feel like a fox pup coming out of the den for the first time, knowing there is danger around every corner.

There are a lot of people that can’t be trusted in our society and by all means be cautious and especially with your kids but when you have to draw lines in the sand involving innocent people, you change society in ways that tear us apart. Until the day comes around again, when you can seal a deal with a smile and a handshake, we will live and work in a world that doesn’t see anybody as truthful and honest and when we get down to that point, a whole lot of other things like integrity, honesty, respect and truthfulness will be just outmoded words without meaning. Then well meaning people who are still trying to live by those rules, become liars, cheaters and untrustworthy, guilty by association along with those who ruined it for everyone.

CONFESSIONS OF A WIMP

                                                

A few years ago, when I started going to Arizona for the winter, one of my friends, asked me why and when I told him to be warm, he called me a wimp. This man had a job inside of a warm building his entire career but he still seemed serious with his banter so I did get a little defensive. I didn’t argue the point with him however, because he was a friend who didn’t know my past. If I had used some kind of a rebuttal that day, I would have said something like this.

As a child growing up my brothers and I slept in an unheated bedroom. For all practical purposes it was the attic. My dad burned wood and the fire went out at night but even if it had been kept going all night, our upstairs bedroom had one small register in the floor, where heat could theoretically leak through to our room. Needless to say it didn’t. Three of us boys slept in one bed in that room, not because we wanted too, but to keep warm. When we went outside, we wore homemade knitted caps and mittens. Shoes, inside of uninsulated six buckle rubber overshoes.

Several years later, when I was in my late twenties. I went to work for a large municipal park maintenance department for 13 years. In the winter 10 of us flooded and maintained 56 skating rinks. The colder the weather, the more you worked because that’s when you made the best ice. That went on for the better part of three months. You drew tanker loads of water from hydrants and then you went to the rinks and sprayed it on the ice. Some of the men rode in tractors with no heaters to speak of, fitted with rotary brooms to sweep the ice first. In the hockey rinks-- 14 of them—after they were swept all the shavings would be piled up against the boards when they were done, so you had to shovel them out before flooding. It was like shoveling a four hundred foot long sidewalk, a foot deep with snow, 14 times a day.

I also had at that time, joined the paid on call fire department. Our fire trucks had two men in the cab and the rest of us rode outside, in the elements, on a kick board across the back of the truck, while hanging onto a chrome bar. We had long rubber coats, thigh high rubber boots and metal helmets with thin earmuffs inside. If you think twenty below is cold, try it on the back of a truck going fifty miles an hour. Both flooding rinks and fighting fires requires you to work with water. Your mitts were wet with in a half hour of going to work, or at a fire. Spend an hour on a thirty-six foot ladder with water spray falling on you at a fire and everything ice coated, while it is far below zero and you will also know then what cold really is.

There is a word called acclimated and its often used to describe getting used to the ascending heights when mountain climbing but it also applies to getting used to working in the cold and you do. My story isn’t unique and I am sure there are many examples of people who lived and worked like this and still do. Construction workers, high line workers and people who have fought wars in such extreme temperatures. I’m no stronger and braver then any other person who does what we did back then.  But I choose to go where its warmer now and I know in my heart I have nothing to prove to anybody, when it comes to tolerating the cold. The wimp.

UNCLE PETE''S FARM

                                                

Not so long ago and not so far away, I remember the world of my parents. It was a far quieter world then we now live in and a more people friendly place. It was a world of quiet times by myself, roaming the woods and streams around the small town I grew up in. No portable phones and no televisions. Just a boy left alone with his imagination because that was really all I had for entertainment and to be truthful, it was all I really needed. No walkmans or I Pads or I Pods. The music that was in my head was sufficient. My dog was my confident and constant companion.

But, I wasn’t anti social. On Sunday afternoons my family usually gathered out at the farm. Everybody brought a dish to pass around and us cousins played softball in the pasture with cow pies for bases and hide & seek in the haymows and outbuildings. All of the old folks gathered in the house, men in the parlor and women in the kitchen and although I wasn’t privy to their conversations, because children knew their place back then, it wasn’t ever-contentious issues and laughter seemed to abound the most. They were family and that was the most important thing to them and that was why they gathered and enjoyed those times.

Then my world got all busy. My cousins drifted away, as did I, and the family gatherings at my uncle’s farm ceased. I grew up and went out to face a world I wasn’t prepared to face, in places where I was never comfortable. It was all asphalt and traffic and people rushing everywhere. The quietness of the rivers, woods and that farm were replaced with noisy televisions and people never happy, always looking for that elusive step up in life. Somehow yet, I adapted and became one of them, but I never accepted it. Fortunately I did live to retire back up north and found a little corner of the world, where sunshine and nature combined to feed my restless mind.

I’m an old man now and although I still remember that better world I originally came from, society and all of us have largely moved on. The quiet woods I came back to enjoy are criss-crossed with 4 wheeler trails and snowmobile paths and the trash they left behind. Helicopters and small planes fly nosily overhead while wave runners and speedboats race around our lake.  The sleepy town I live near in the summer, sometimes resembles what I left behind in the big city. Life has moved on and largely without me.

I drive by uncle Pete’s farm as I make my way over to my hometown, a couple of times a year to see my siblings that still live there. I can still hear the laughter from the kids playing; I can still taste and smell the hot dishes and the food we enjoyed together as family. I remember my diminutive ever-busy aunt Chris who looked so much like Mother Theresa always smiling in her apron. My uncle Pete in his overalls telling his kids playtime was over for now, because there were chores to do. Work or not, I have always envied those who farm.

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HEALTH CARE

                                                          

I have written before about health care and now I write again. I hear the phrase health care reform and somehow it makes me think that somehow, some place people are working to reform the way health care works, when in essence all they are doing is some unethical shell game of who is going to pay for it. Nothing is changing with the drug companies or the hospital networks prices. They just want some outside entity to subsidize the price so people can afford it. This does nothing to lower the price of health care. News flash! Tax money is our money.

The drug companies offer the billions they are paying for researching new drugs as the reasons for the high costs but what good does your new drugs and new therapies do when no one but the rich can afford them. It’s as if you are taunting ordinary people with your magic pills and saying, “Want some? You’ll have to pay for it.” Try to make sense of what that smiling little crook from Epipen had to say to congress a year ago when they were so concerned and brought him in for questioning. Yet today the price for that device, that costs little to produce, and has been around for a long time, is still through the roof. Thanks Congress for nothing. Whose side are you on?

Health care has the potential and already has; bankrupted companies and people that can’t afford to pay the premiums. It’s in every political debate. Other countries have made great strides in this but somehow this country doesn’t know how. Swallow your ego Washington and look around you, across the borders where quality health care exists. The answers are there if you want to pay attention to what you see and not the advice you hear and get, from big pharma.

My son is a retired cop, way to young for Medicare, who has to pay for his own health care for him and his wife. He works part time as a security guard in a hospital. The wages are not good, the health care benefits are. So in essence he works for health care. It used to be you worked for wages and health care was a benefit but for him at least, it’s the primary reason he has to work. There will never be a perfect health care system because of our two political ideologies that both have their own stubborn ideas on what health care should look like. One side wants free health care for everyone. They say elect me and I will straighten this whole mess out. They never say how and they never say where the money is going to come from. Then we have the other side that leans heavily toward capitalism. A free market they call it. That might work if you had capitalism that wasn’t run amok with greed. Their greedy plan omits way to many people.

Government of the people, by the people and for the people does not exist in this country. It exists only in textbooks and old cliques that date back to when our government was formed. . We have government by the lobbyists and for the lobbyists and they are the ones who rule our form of government and they will never quit until they have squeezed every last penny out of the people, as wrong as that is-- Washington should be charged with aiding and abetting.

A BETTER TOMMOROW

                                               

I write often about the past and maybe its because my memories seem much more pleasant to me then the reality of things today. Then too, maybe its because I know nothing of what tomorrow might bring, because I’m really not that involved in it anymore. But I do know where I have been and what I did and maybe in reality this is just a bunch of musings of an old man, hopelessly lost in the thoughts of yesterday. I used to live in the moment of each new day. As the New Christie Minstrels sang back in the early sixties. “A million tomorrows can all pass away, Ere I forget all the joy that is mine today.” That was my mantra back then. At that time I had no past, I wanted to recollect. Each day was a new adventure and I lived them as if there were no tomorrows that mattered. I guess I secretly knew someday the credits would roll, the curtain would fall and although for some of us there could be a short encore, basically the show was drawing to an end so make the most of it.

Well actually, not a million tomorrows, but a lot of them have passed away and my whole outlook on life has changed. Oh yes, I still cling to the past but only for my own comfort and entertainment. You see this world no longer belongs to my generation or little does the present generation even care what our dreams were, or what our accomplishments have gained for today’s society. For the most part we have now been relegated to the dark ages, even though our blood still flows and our neurons still flash, albeit much slower and dimmer. It’s time to forget the resume building and build character instead. There is a new sheriff in town and we need to sit quietly and listen.

We had our chance didn’t we? But even the person who invented the wheel-- and yes, that was before me-- never dreamed that someday it would be replaced by a driverless car that would take to the air, needing not asphalt or semaphores to get to its destination. That cancer would go the way of the mumps and we would wear our phones on our wrists like Dick Tracy, and not all of that is here yet-- but it will be.

For without change there is no need for tomorrows. Dreams and aspirations become just that: hopes of achievements that were never brought to fruition. Society is constantly being built and rebuilt on the building blocks of human minds, whose ideals belong to those who dare to dream bigger and better. These are not self-deluding fantasies; these are a blue print for tomorrow, for a bigger, kinder and better world for those we dared to pass the torch to.

It’s not any of this change that I lament today as I write this. In fact I embrace it. What makes me blue is just all of the players who were part of that cast that I lived, played and worked with— that for the most part no longer exist in the flesh. Only in the dark recesses of my mind. “Old Blue Eyes” sang, “Regrets I had a few, but then again, to few to mention. I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption.”And now just like Frankie I’m stating my case without exemption, and saying to those who are succeeding my generation and me. You do it your way and I’ll just sit quietly and watch. 

AGREAT EXAMPLE

                                                

I while back I listened to some of the eulogies that were given for our 41^stpresident, George Herbert Walker Bush. One of things that moves me, when I’m listening to the accounts of the lives of those who have served all of us with such distinction, is it’s not always what they accomplished but how they lived their lives. This was a good and humble man who never became tainted by the politics of Washington even though he often had to try and play by their rules, simply because he was our President.

Alan Simpson, a friend, and a former Senator, read a quote that some of those who were in attendance should take to heart as they go about their business in the capital. His quote simply said that, “Hatred is one of the few things that will eventually corrode the vessel it is carried in.” Many of those in politics have gone away from just disagreeing with their opponents, they in turn, have turned to hating them and they are not shy about expressing it. 

Many of those in attendance at the Cathedral and many of us watching it could feel we were standing in the shadow of greatness at that funeral that day. Not greatness so much for what he had accomplished but greatness for the way he lived his life. We will all be judged someday, if not by a greater power, at least by our peers. How nice it will be to have someone eulogize us and say, not what a great person we were but what a nice and kinder person we were. Our accomplishment will always be over shadowed at some point in life but how people will remembered us, as a kinder gentler person; will live on as long as their memories do. 

I watched the demeanor of our current President as he sat stoic and expressionless throughout the ceremonies. His arms often folded across his chest in a defiant pose. I thought what is it like to go through life seemingly angry at everybody and everything? What is it like to have to go to a social event like this and know that the people who are sitting next to you in that row, are the same people you have been chastising for the last two years? What is it like for the people of this country to know that the person, we trust to run our country and keep it safe, seemingly can’t get along with anybody? This isn’t about the mans policies; this is about him. I know there are some out there who disagree with me but for the most part they too like the bully pulpit way of doing business. The flow of people in and out of this administration is unprecedented. He can’t even get along with his own appointees.

We are at a crossroads in this country. We went from one of the most respected nations on the face of the earth after World war II, to a country that right now has few friends in this world. There is no going it alone in this world anymore. We live in a global economy. We need them to buy our products, as much as we need some of their products. For all that to happen we need cooperation and cooperation is a side product of friendships and alliances that build trust. Without trust you have nothing.

HEALTH CARE

I have written before about health care and now I write again. I hear the phrase health care reform and somehow it makes me think that somehow, some place people are working to reform the way health care works, when in essence all they are doing is some unethical shell game of who is going to pay for it. Nothing is changing with the drug companies or the hospital networks prices. They just want some outside entity to subsidize the price so people can afford it. This does nothing to lower the price of health care. News flash! Tax money is our money. The drug companies offer the billions they are paying for researching new drugs as the reasons for the high costs but what good does your new drugs and new therapies do when no one but the rich can afford them. It’s as if you are taunting ordinary people with your magic pills and saying, “Want some? You’ll have to pay for it.”

Try to make sense of what that smiling little crook from Epipen had to say to congress a year ago when they were so concerned and brought him in for questioning. Yet today the price for that device, that costs little to produce, and has been around for a long time, is still through the roof. Thanks Congress for nothing. Whose side are you on? Health care has the potential and already has; bankrupted companies and people that can’t afford to pay the premiums. It’s in every political debate. Other countries have made great strides in this but somehow this country doesn’t know how. Swallow your ego Washington and look around you, across the borders where quality health care exists. The answers are there if you want to pay attention to what you see and not the advice you hear and get, from big pharma.

 My son is a retired cop, way to young for Medicare, who has to pay for his own health care for him and his wife. He works part time as a security guard in a hospital. The wages are not good, the health care benefits are. So in essence he works for health care. It used to be you worked for wages and health care was a benefit but for him at least, it’s the primary reason he has to work.

There will never be a perfect health care system because of our two political ideologies that both have their own stubborn ideas on what health care should look like. One side wants free health care for everyone. They say elect me and I will straighten this whole mess out. They never say how and they never say where the money is going to come from. Then we have the other side that leans heavily toward capitalism. A free market they call it. That might work if you had capitalism that wasn’t run amok with greed. Their greedy plan omits way to many people. Government of the people, by the people and for the people does not exist in this country. It exists only in textbooks and old cliques that date back to when our government was formed. . We have government by the lobbyists and for the lobbyists and they are the ones who rule our form of government and they will never quit until they have squeezed every last penny out of the people, as wrong as that is-- Washington should be charged with aiding and abetting.

FAITH OF OUR FATHERS

I wanted to talk a little bit about faith and before you roll your eyes or quit reading I would like to say, not any faith in particular, as I’m not a man of the cloth and not that qualified to speak about it. But what I want to talk about is the reason or reasons it is becoming more and more unpopular in society. It seems fitting that I am writing about this at Christmas time because there is a definite tie in with some religions this time of the year. Christmas and Hanukah both being celebrated. It is my belief that if most people don’t practice their parents faith, or any other they have been introduced too, they pretty well wash the faith part of life, out of their lives and their children’s lives’ and for most of them that’s forever. The exceptions would be spouses or friends who won’t give it up and ask you to participate. Peer pressure you might say. I could say I saw this coming a long time ago because at a young age I saw families worshiping together frequently and then later in life I noticed a lot of them dropping the kids off at church or Sunday school and picking them up afterwards and I often wondered why at some point the kids wouldn’t think, “They want me to go but they don’t?” Do as I say, not as I do, doesn’t work very well in the long run. So what do people gain by practicing some faith? Morality, virtue, love and respect for your fellow man come to mind. Look around you and see what the lack of this is doing to society. I don’t mean to imply that good people can’t live and prosper in this country without faith in some personal deity. I don’t mean to say that religious people can’t do bad things-- they can and they do everyday. Foxes in sheep’s clothing they are. But no one hates them more then the religious people, for they aren’t just sinners they are hypocrites. But the trend in this country seems to be less and less of the virtues that define us as good people and most of us need all the help we can get with that. Most religions help us keep our minds and noses clean by rules and a clearer definition of the laws of good conduct. They spell it out for us and praise us when we succeed and shame us when we don’t. A working conscience can be a good and helpful thing. Church and worship has never been a mandatory thing, at least in our society’s rules and that’s good because if you are going to win rewards for participating, it has to come from your heart. I still hear references to God and Jesus and prayers being offered for people at tragic, events. Not sure always if the sincerity is there but who am I to judge. I guess what it does say is that people are still turning that way for help in times of need and that’s what it’s there for is it not? I just think it would be nice if the beliefs this country was founded on were still front and center with people and not seemingly relegated to the back burner to be used only when things go bad. After all, even your parents when you were growing up, liked a little thanksgiving from you from time to time and not always just petitions for more things. Or is it just karma that’s important now days?

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Charlotte Anselmo wrote a New Years prayer I have read over and over so many times and I want to quote the very last part of it for all of you. She said, “The New Year lies before you like a spotless track of snow. Be careful how you tread on it for every mark will show.” To those of us who grew up in the northern states and lived in the country, you know just what I am talking about when you get up in the morning after a fresh snowfall and you look around at that soft white blanket that has covered every existing imperfection and suddenly you see the world in a whole new light. I know, and you know that when the clock rings twelve on this New Years Eve, we can’t shed the baggage that follows us from the years gone by. That the only thing that has really changed is the date. That our bills, our problems and even our sins will not be erased, without some outside action on our part. But for so many of us it can be a call to action and a new beginning, if we want it to be, even if it’s actually not a reprieve. Instead it’s a benchmark if you will, a line in the sand and a new beginning for the calendar year ahead. It’s somewhat synonymous with that new snowfall that just last night covered up all that ugly dirt and imperfections. They’re gone from the eye but yet still there underneath that snowy white mantel but at least for now you don’t have to deal with them. You can focus on something new. How would I want the world to look if I had any say in the design? Well for one, I would like us all to be stripped of the greed that permeates our society. It seems so foolish that in a world, with enough room for everyone and enough food to feed everyone that this greed even exists. Number two I would make every effort to preserve this planet for the ages. There are those who find this kind of thinking, getting in the way of their efforts to make money. They don’t care about tomorrow and they don’t care who they harm. It’s like standing on a tree branch and sawing it off close to the tree. In the end we’ll all fall, rich or poor, including the person with the saw. We build up great societies and then we destroy them in wars. Then we wait a few years and we repeat the cycle. There is in my church a song we sing that say’s, “Let there be peace on earth and let it began with me.” Speaking only about our own country and speaking for myself we seem to be fighting and killing all over the globe with no positive results. At least as it applies to peace. It’s like war is big business and that is part of the price of doing business. If we want peace in this world we need to practice what we preach--but that’s right were not preaching it. Were not even talking about it. With that attitude how can it possibly begin with us? Life on this earth is precious for all of us. But one would think, at least for us human beings that we would try and refine the product even more. We have done that with almost every tangible thing we have ever made. Try to make it bigger and better over time but for some reason we can’t do it with our attitudes toward each other. Maybe this New Years Day would be a good time to start. Yes, let it begin with me.

CHRISTMAS LETTER

We spend our whole lives making comparisons. Was that the best job I ever had? The best vacation I ever took? The best dinner I ever ate, or the best Christmas ever? As long as we have a memory we will continue to draw an analogy between the past and the present. As an old man my memories are full of moms and dads, uncles, aunts, grandparents, a spouse, kids and friends who once sat around my Christmas tree but now are gone. All of them special in there own way. But today as I contemplate all of this, and as fond as those memories are, I realize the only Christmas that is important to me this year, is the one coming up and the only way to reap the benefits is to get involved. If there is one thing the holidays seem to bring out in people. It is, we quit thinking about ourselves and think of others and how we can brighten their Christmas holiday. I once knew of an old man who had lost his spouse and that first Christmas without her, he told his family that he would not be available for Christmas Eve. He would see them the next day. He was not a rich man but that Christmas Eve, without telling anyone else; he went to his bank and withdrew 500 dollars in 10-dollar bills. Then alone, he went to the local homeless shelter or mission that night and handed each person a bill and wished him or her a Merry Christmas. He didn’t tell them not to spend it on alcohol or other bad things. He simply said “Merry Christmas.” The next day at Christmas dinner when his family asked where he was last night. He smiled and simply said, “It was the best Christmas Eve ever.” I think of all of the lonely people who have nothing but their memories to cling to at Christmas and it makes me sad. It’s this sad part of the holidays, that some are able to push to the back of their minds but not me. In a way, I envy those who can. At the start of this I talked about making comparisons. How about the difference between giving and receiving? How do we become humble in our giving and yet grateful in receiving? You don’t have to be old to experience this. I remember a Christmas when one of my kids gave me a plaster cast of their little hand they had made in school. As I opened the gift I asked my wife out loud, what is this? Before she could answer I saw my child’s face go from glee to sadness. They had made something especially for me for Christmas and all I could say was-- what is this? I tried to make light of it but the damage was done. Oh how I wish I had that plaster cast today to sit on my desk. To see that little handprint, that is today, fifty some years old and wrinkled with age. Pat and I, after six years together, will be spending our first Christmas Day alone together and away from our families. It will be different for both of us but yet we take solace in the fact that we have each other and at least speaking for me, I can’t ask for any more than that. We have no plans for elaborate gifts for each other. Our companionship and our love for each other is our gift. At our age, giving can be as simple as a hug and a smile. It speaks volumes and you can’t buy it on line.

HIATUS

By the time you read this, Pat and I will be back in Arizona for the winter. There was a time when I never thought I would ever be a snowbird and the word still kind of sticks in my craw. Yes, I was the consummate Minnesota man who would walk around all winter in my Sorrel boots and Carharts. Icy snot cycles would be hanging from my mustache and beard. My breath forming clouds of steam as I pushed my snow blower, through raging blizzards shouting at the top of my lungs, “Is that all you got? Bring it on Mother Nature you wimp. My dog Molly would be sitting on the porch cheering me on but saying to herself; “I ain’t going out there. I’ll pee right here thank you.” I always had a spear house that I drug out onto the lake in the winter when the ice formed. Back then, my little stove would take the chill off in the fish house and my dog would help me scan the depths for those allusive “Northern’s” and wag his tail when he spotted one. Then successful, I would fire up the snowmobile and head home with my kill. Those fish, fresh out of that cold water never tasted better. I loved to cross country ski and snowshoe. I would watch the ice races on the lake when they plowed the track. I would ride to Crosby on my snowmobile, have a little toddy-- just a wee one—and then head home, warm inside and out. Then Mother Nature took over in a different direction. Lungs that saw to much abuse in my Fire Fighting days rebelled and now I have coughing fits when they suck in cold air. I go nowhere without my inhalers and you don’t have to say it-- I’ll say it for you--. I’m not the man I used to be. Fingers and toes that never got cold now get cold in bed. I live by myself and cold winter nights are lonely winter nights and there is way too much darkness. I need to exercise daily for my breathing and I need someplace warm to do it and I’m not cut out to be a mall walker. Pat takes over the cooking when we are in Arizona so at least for part of the year I eat food that is really good for me. She cleans our house and washes my clothes and laughs at my silly jokes-----well smiles at my silly jokes---sometimes. We go exploring in the desert and have made so many new friends and we also have reconnected with old friends, who too escape the cold down there. Yes, we are happy when we get down to Arizona but when April rolls around and we find our way back up north we are happier yet, because we are back in the land we both love so much and call our home. There will be a few snow banks left when we return but within weeks the rhubarb will be up, the lakes will turn back to water again and like a metamorphous the earth will shed its icy cocoon and spring will be in the air. Baby animals and birds everywhere, green grass and buds on the trees and new stories to tell at coffee. So it’s a hiatus for us from winter yes-- but my ‘Meandering Mind’ will find something to write about and if it sucks you can tell me in April. By the way, my spear house is now my garden shed. I don’t have a garden—just the tools.

DEER HUNTING

So today is the opening of deer hunting and as I sit by my desk, I hear the gunshots out in the woods across the road and wonder if the boys got one. I hunted for over fifty years but health issues and a lack of the killing attitude that it takes to shoot a deer have left me in the house now. But there is something bigger for me this year that makes me sad. Although I didn’t hunt we were still all together for the weekend. I hunted vicariously through all of them. I helped them put up their stands and we shared a lot of good meals and time together. Next year my plan is to head south before the hunting season, so this was probably my last deer-hunting season. I think back to the years we hunted together and the love and comradely we enjoyed. The year my son and I were the only two hunting and we had spent many hours the day before placing our stands in the perfect place, planning the hunt and filing our packs with snacks, outfitted better then the U.S. army. We both got our deer before 7.30 that next morning and spent the rest of the weekend not knowing what to do with ourselves, so we watched football games. It was almost sad. I think too of the year my son, as a young man, shot a deer at dusk, wounding it and then instead of waiting for the rest of the party to help him, took off on his own and tried tracking it in the dark, until his flashlight wore out and he was hopelessly lost. He stumbled out of the woods late in the evening soaking wet and cold, just minutes before I was going to call his mother back in the cities and also call the police for help. I had no idea what I was going to tell her. I hunted years ago when it was ten below and when it was so warm, if I’d had orange underwear I would have been sitting in it. I hunted in a blizzard once when you couldn’t see three feet in front of you. I have shot deer at a hundred yards and some from a few feet away. I once was in my brother’s field of fire and he didn’t know it and I heard the bullet go by me, inches from my head. Then on that last year that I hunted, on the last day of hunting and not having any luck, a nice doe walked right up to my stand. I watched her looking at me seemingly surprised that I was there and not knowing which way to run. I stood up and yelled at her. “Get out of here.” I knew that day, my hunting days were over. Deer hunting has been a tradition in many families over the years. The woods way up north are dotted with old rotted stands and even some abandoned shacks that have given way to more modern conveniences For me it wasn’t just about deer but about time alone to examine your conscience. Time to come to grips with how much your loved ones meant to you and to be one with God and nature. I have given my rifles and guns to my grandsons. I hope that my example helped them to be good hunters and if not-- well that’s okay too. It’s not for everybody. I’m not a gun advocate but I believe hunting has a way of making families bond together and be responsible gun owners and users. It’s not the guns that cause trouble in this country it’s the people who have them, who have no business having them, and a sick country that makes it far too easy for them to do so.

REQUIEM FOR A SUNSHINE BOY

When we started our coffee group, called the “Sunshine Boys,” over fifteen years ago there was a core group of men who numbered around ten. There was another group of ten or so who came by now and then, so all in all it was a lively group but a respectable group. I was one of the younger ones. As the years have gone by, old age, disease and accidents has taken its toll and now there are very few of us left. Saturday we buried old Charlie and so the ranks thinned again. So many times we have celebrated the lives of our friends on days like this, but to be truthful there’s not many of us left to celebrate. Far more of us are below the earth then above it. From the start we controlled the rancor at our meetings. We kept contentious issues at bay and just enjoyed the fellowship that old friends find comforting. We rallied around the sick, told old stories over and over again, and poked good-natured fun at each other, but in the end we always left each other on a good note. We were as different as snowflakes but we always put the common good of the group ahead of any bias we had in life and we called it respect. Charlie was one of us. Charlie died from dementia and although I didn’t make the effort to go see him after he went into a facility, I know I should have. It didn’t matter if he knew me or not. I knew him and that was the most important thing. The people who have meant the most to me in life have always been the congenial and kind people like Charlie and not the brash and tough ones. I’ve mellowed in my old age. I didn’t always feel like this. But as I reflect on the times of when I was angry and unsettled in life, one thing stands out. That indifference to others views, that I had back then, never ended well. It never brought about compromise or cooperation. It only brought about more conflict. But to have that compromising attitude which is the only mindset to have to do business correctly, you have to be humble and I wasn’t always. Our society has all too often turned to anger and grandstanding lately to get their point across. I see it far to often in the people I talk to and I talk to a lot of people. You find yourself choosing your words so carefully, fully cognizant that one misspoke word or phrase will turn the whole conversation bad and forgiveness doesn’t come easy sometimes. This boiling bitterness lies just under the skin of a lot of people and can erupt in a hurry and if you’re not careful it can draw you in like quicksand and the more things get heated, the deeper and deeper you get into it. My mom used to say, “The things that are best said are sometimes left unsaid. That if you know you’re right you don’t have to prove it to anybody.” Maybe not the best mantra for a writer but good advice, never the less. “Be right in your mind not theirs,” She said. I have even known people who threatened physical violence to those who stand up to them. They usually end up void of friends and muttering to themselves. Charlie was a good man who left you with a smile. He was a Christian man and lived that kind of life to prove it. He will be missed but the bigger thing we should all take from this is a firm resolves for all of us, to be more like Charlie.

LIFE

This isn’t just about me; it’s about many of us who grew up 50-60 years ago. Parents in those days loved their kids just as much as parents do today but they had a different way of making you step up to the plate. They didn’t have the same threats to barter with you for your behavior, as parents do today. They couldn’t take away your phone or your x-box because we didn’t have one. They couldn’t take away your allowance because we didn’t get one. So instead they gave us a common sense approach to what would be expected of us in today’s world if we were going to be successful. They in effect showed us how to be responsible. When I was fourteen years old, I got a job at a chicken hatchery-cleaning chicken poop out of cages. I was paid a dime an hour. I stunk so bad when I got home my mom made me clean up in the yard with soap and the garden hose. When I was fifteen I had a paper route that got me up at five thirty in the morning to deliver papers before school. I had a canvas bag I wore over my shoulder with about fifty papers in it and I walked the 3-mile route in the winter, no matter the weather. No parent to drive me. I made a couple of bucks a week. When I was seventeen I got a job in a drug store stocking shelves and cleaning the floors. I was ecstatic, as I got seventy-five cents an hour. But in turn I had few friends or social life and was left out of most after school activities. When I graduated from high school my father told me to get a job and move out. I thought about college but there was no money for tuition so I went to work in a Machine shop where I made good money but hated the work. Eventually I found a job I liked and life was good after that. When I was in my fifties I had a disagreement with a supervisor and I retaliated by not talking to her. She told me I had too much foolish pride. I told her I did have a lot of pride but it wasn’t foolish pride because I earned every bit of pride I had. I am sure if she knew my story and how I had got where I was, she would have understood. To those of you who have never worked for a living, or are still living off your parents, the thing you are missing out on the most in today’s world, is your own self worth. My friends tell me the reason things are, like they are today, is it’s just a different world now days. I want to say “duh.” That’s an excuse, not a reason. There’s a difference. A reason is usually a valid justification for doing what you are doing. An excuse is all to often just your interpretation of why you don’t want to do things and not always based on facts. I fully realize this isn’t about everyone, but it s about enough people to cause concern and a big problem here in the nation and in our lake country. There is a help wanted poster in just about every business I go by. Businesses that relied on young people to work their summers in this resort community. Some of them are going out of business. Not for a lack of interest in their product. Instead, for a lack of people to work for them. When I was young there were just as many businesses that needed help, but jobs were hard to find. Everybody wanted a job and everybody’s parents wanted their kids to work and it wasn’t always because they were poor. It was because they wanted their kids to be responsible. The blame goes to the parents.

FOR OUR VETERANS

I have this job in my old age now of cleaning out closets and throwing away things I don’t need anymore. I always knew it had to be done someday but I always thought I would make it her job. I was good at that in the years we were married. But she fooled me and she left first, so now I’m left holding the bags and many boxes. But you ask,” How does this tie in with our veterans?” Well let me get to that. In an old box, high on a shelf the other day, I found an old uniform. Now there have been a lot of us that wore uniforms over the years but there was no doubt that this was an army uniform. It felt like it was made out of mostly wool and the insignias on the sleeves said this man was a Tech Sergeant and it had four bars on the sleeves and several patches that I believe represent the outfit he was in. Also one gold button that represents the infantry. There was only one family member this could have belonged to and that was my father-in-law. My wife had kept this uniform after he passed away. My son was named after this man so I have since passed it on to him. He has the flag that was spread over his coffin and all of his medals. But let me tell you a little more about Sergeant Leo Maus. Leo joined the army in 1939 and when the Japanese bombed Pearl Harbor two years later he was sent to fight in the south pacific. He fought in the Philippines and several other small islands but as the war was drawing down he was sent to the battle of Okinawa. He survived that bloody battle but a lot of his buddies didn’t. Although he was wounded three times, he came home in 1946. After the war Leo came back to his hometown and bought a gasoline filling station in the town of Staples. That’s where I met his daughter who later became my wife. He was a gifted mechanic, back when you didn’t need a P.H.D to fix an automobile. He was a proud veteran who would always snap to attention when the flag was presented, be it a parade or a sporting event. I asked him several times about his battles in World War II but he would only say, “The war is over, lets live in peace.” Leo was the best father-in-law I could have ever had, a wonderful dad to my wife and a loving grandpa to our kids. When I laid that uniform out on the bed that day after I found it, I had tears although he’s been gone for 40 years. I had tears because this was the uniform of a hero who left his blood on the beaches of Okinawa and came home to one last victory march and then went on with his life where he had left off and all he would say about it, is “The war is over let’s live in peace.” What a humble man. In his later years Leo had a stroke that left him partially paralyzed. He should have been in a wheel chair but he would walk around dragging his dead leg behind him and holding a cane in his one good arm to steady himself. He refused to let anyone help him unless there was no other way to get where he wanted to go. He lived out the last decade of his life in the old soldiers home in Minneapolis. He’s buried in the National Cemetery in Minneapolis. God bless Leo. God bless all of our veterans.

FAMILY NAME

                                            

When I was a young man and just going out into the world, my father gave me a little plaque. A the top of it was written in bold letters our family name “Holst.” Underneath that was a verse that said in part. “You got it from your father. It was all he had to give. So it’s yours to use and cherish, for as long as you may live. If you lose the watch he gave you it can always be replaced. But a black mark on your name can never be erased. It was clean the day you took it and a worthy name to bear. When he got it from his father, there was no dishonor there. So make sure you guard it wisely. After all is said and done. You will be glad the name is spotless, when you give it to your son.”

I have often thought about the message that was there on that tiny plaque and today, it hangs on the wall in my office where I see it often. My grandfather and my father never did anything to tarnish our family name in their lifetimes. I haven’t either but then I’m not done living, am I, so I need to keep working on that. So does my son, his sons and my siblings. My father was a poor man but a proud man. He held in high regard the principals his father had given him. He never had all of the gray areas to deal with that we are subjected to now days in our society, when it comes to morals and behavior. Most of his beliefs and ideals were either right or wrong and most of them were based on his strong Christian faith.

I tend to believe as my father believed but I have to admit it becomes harder and harder to do it. So much of what we once believed to be wrong, has morphed into either right or mildly objectionable. So not only have things changed, but also you can be told you’re wrong to believe the way my parents raised me to believe. I have been told and I have seen others being told, that very thing. My father has been dead for twenty years, yet he still influences my life and my actions even today. Call it pride, call it self-respect, call it what you want too it’s a hard thing to rid your conscience of, when you go against it. To use a modern term, it is my default setting and sometimes when I get too far out of whack, I simply have to reboot and go back.

I once had to go to court to vouch for my kid brother who had done something bad. I went to beg the court for leniency for him because I knew-- and my brother knew-- what he had done was so wrong and he had hurt people. He was an alcoholic and drunk when he did it but that’s not an excuse, it’s just a reason and there is a difference. To my knowledge my father never knew about this act. My brother made restitution to all the people he hurt, was forgiven and to the best of my knowledge never strayed again. He’s gone now too, like our dad and I hope somewhere they did meet again. I know dad would have been proud of him for ending it well.

It is my hope and my prayer that I never tarnish our family name. I know now that if I do, I ruin it for generations to come. No one wants to be affiliated with someone who has done that. I’m not here to judge others and this is not some sanctimonious rant about me. I just meant to share what honesty and integrity meant to my family back then and what it means to me today. 

HUMMINGBIRDS

                                               

Right outside of my office window hang my hummingbird feeders. All day as I write these tiny birds zip in and out to feed. They can fly forwards, backwards and sideways; lift straight up or simply hover like a helicopter. They are the most acrobatic flyers in the whole bird community. Besides eating up all of my sugar they accomplish other things around the yard that are helpful. They help pollinate the flowers on the apple trees and bushes. There are so full of energy yet they are one of the tiniest birds in the kingdom, weighing less then an ounce. Come fall, like the other birds, they too make the long trip to a warmer climate. Its perilous but if they survive, they always come back where they came from.

I wonder if any of the accomplishments mankind has a made in ultra marathons and ironman competitions for endurance levels, can equal what happens when a bird that weighs less then an ounce, travels thousand of miles to Central America to winter. Ruby throated hummingbirds are solitary creatures and fly mostly by themselves, often up to 500 miles a day, their wings beating up to 80 times a second. They live three to five years before they wear their tiny bodies out and die.

These tiny birds build their nests, usually in a crotch of a tree, out of lichens held together with spider webs, which are sticky and hold the nest together. The nest seldom survives the winters so although they will come back to the same location each year, they build new nests every season. They usually lay two eggs that take about eighteen days to hatch. Only the female incubates the eggs. Hummingbirds do eat small insects and spiders and feed them to their young. I have witnessed them eating ants that made their way to the feeder drawn by the sugar water. The nests are hard to spot so watching a female go back to her nest is probably the best way to find a nest. The ruby throat hummingbird is the only one that ventures as far north as Minnesota. There are however many species in the southern United States.

I’m a nature freak when it comes to this stuff. I find this stuff so amazing but yet I never take it for granted. I know that in so much of this world, the habitat for these creatures is in peril. I know too that there are a lot of people on this earth that couldn’t care less. Their world revolves around drugs and alcohol or hedge funds and stock markets. This world is just a place to make money and take that money and play. Nature just gets in the way.

I have too, in front of me, pictures of my great grandchildren. It is my hope that they too will someday become in-tune with nature. That is, if there is anything left on earth worth looking at. If the waters we drink aren’t poisoned with chemicals, and the air we breathe with carbon monoxide. If the oceans aren’t filled with plastic and the polar ice caps melted away, then maybe they will have a chance. How can something that I started out writing about, on such a light side, turn into something so depressing. It’s when you can’t get around the truth that things, even like hummingbirds, gets this depressing.

JOE MAUER

There are moments in sports that you want to just frame and hang on your wall for the entire world to see. Sunday September 30^thwas one such moment. It was the end of the baseball season for the Minnesota Twins and quite possibly the end of Joe Mauer’s playing days. Joe was the quintessential hero of so many baseball fans from the Midwest. A home grown boy who won our hearts many years ago and then cracked them open just a little bit on that last day when he stood there in his beloved catcher’s gear and doffed his cap for the last time. A class act, by a classy baseball player, who will be sorely missed.

As a twins fan our emotions haven’t had to many chances to swell over the years. Oh, I remember the twins of 87 and 91. I got to go to my first and most likely last World Series game. Those series wins were two Cinderella moments in four years that are etched into my memory. We had our Kirby, our Kent and our Jack Morris back then to pay homage too. There was the game five home run by Kirby when only the immortal announcer Jack Buck could say. “And we will see you tomorrow night.”It was our moment in infamy. I’ll never forget the night they won game seven. I wandered around the Minneapolis loop with tears in my eyes and my heart swelling with pride because our Twins had done what no one thought they could ever do and they were not just the World Champs. They were our World Champs.

It was quiet for a few years in the twin’s origination and then along came Joe. Joe was not just a great catcher and batter; he was an all around athlete and an all around good guy. Yes it was off the field too, that he shined. He was a hero to so many kids and little league coaches were telling their young batters everywhere “If you want to be good, watch Joe Mauer’s stance in the batters box. Watch Joe Mauer’s swing.” It was epic and when Joe uncoiled, that picture belonged on top of every baseball-hitting trophy that was ever given out.

There were those naysayers that said Joe made to much money and you know what-- they all make too much money. But Joe never threatened to go to the Yankees, Joe never threatened to boycott the twins or ask to be traded to get that money and who in his right mind won’t take it if it was offered. Joe was just Joe, and the public loved him. There were those who said he was hurt too much but injuries come to the fiercest competitors more then others because they play sometimes with reckless abandon. Joe was hurt the most as a catcher and anyone who has every caught baseball knows what its like to squat in the dirt for three hours while a big league pitcher throws 98 mile an hour fastballs at you and big league batters foul those pitches back off your mask and body while that runner from third base barrels down the line with his shoulder lowered just to take you out.

Joe’s last time at bat was classic Joe, taking that outside pitch and driving it to left field, then making the turn and stretching it into a double. Grantland Rice the great sportswriter said and I quote. “For when the one great scorer comes to write against your name, He marks not if you won or lost but how you played the game.” Thanks for the memories Joe.

END OF AM ERA

                                                

I look out over my front yard tonight and the lake is quiet, shimmering softly in the waning twilight. There was a lot of quiet time this summer at the lake for me. I think I went fishing a few times and there were a few nights, when I just sat on the end of the dock and soaked up the sunsets. They’re just as spectacular now as they always were but something is missing. Maybe it was an old warm and wrinkled hand that was once curled up in mine as we sat there. Maybe it was the small children playing on the beach and maybe it was kids in wet bathing suits, with wet sandy hair in their faces, catching sunfish on one side of the dock and throwing them off the other.

There is something about a lake place that takes sentiment to new highs. The water-skiing, tubing and boat rides. Those evenings around the campfires you never wanted to end. You could see the flames reflected in little kids wet eyes as they stared into the fire, snuggled in sweatshirts in their parent’s laps. You waited all of your life to live like this but as much as you want to now, you can’t stop the world and just freeze these moments. Because time marches on and all to often, those who are the oldest and the ones that find the most meaning in all of this, run out of time first. I have upstairs in my house a corner for displaying all of the picture albums taken over the years. A place literally packed with thirty years of nostalgia.

I rode around the chain with my friend the other day and as we poked along the shorelines I could feel the same things that are playing out in my life right now, being played out in the many cabins and mansion we passed. How I wanted to probe the history of each and every one. How many years I thought has this been the family go to place? How many generations raced to the lake for the weekend and time with grandpa and grandma? There were a few realtors’ signs on the shorelines and for them you know, it’s the end of an era.

Soon I will turn my back on the lake for this season and Pat and I will head for the southwest where the sun is still warm. So many people have told me, “Pat and you have the best of both worlds.” But to be truthful the best is mostly used up and although we do have our moments, so much is gone to the ages. September to me is summers grand finale. I remember Neil Diamond singing the song “September Morn.” One verse is so relevant to me as I write this cool September night. “September morn. Do you remember how we danced that night away? Two lovers playing scenes from some romantic play. September mornings still can make me feel that way.”

As I navigate through the rest of life I am sure there will be many good times yet to be had. Its my hope that my family will keep the lake place so what has happened here over the last thirty years, can be repeated again in other families that too will grow up here. That they also will feel someday as I do now. And when that time comes for that final roll call, I will spend my last days right here where my heart lives. I am sure my story is being played out all over this Eden we call the lake country.

THE EMPTY NEST

                                              

My son told me the other day that his youngest boy is moving out and now it’s just his wife and him alone in the house. He mentioned that it wasn’t just another empty bedroom in their house that was happening; it also, was going to be a much quieter house. Then he said wistfully, “ That is, if a quieter house is what you’re looking for.” I said, “You and your wife should be proud that he is going to be missed that much. It says to me, you did a good job.”

It’s a pensive moment when you look into your kids rooms and realize there never coming back to it. You see the football pennants on the wall in his room and the shelves full of model cars and planes. Or across the hall, a room with a four-poster canopy bed, laden down with stuffed animals and pom poms, mementos from your little girl who is s now a young lady, with her eyes set on the future. You’ve joked with your spouse along the way about making her room into a gym that you probably wouldn’t use anyway or maybe a craft room for her, who’s not sure if she wants to go that route either. Maybe it’s time for a smaller home-- but moving? How do you say goodbye to all your friends and neighbors you’ve known for 20 years?

Life has all of these teaching moments you can read about and I can write about but in the end you have to live them to appreciate what they really are all about. Along with your newfound freedom comes a sense of, “What do I do now?” As much as you didn’t want to admit it, you enjoyed the responsibility of taking this child down that path to adulthood. Watching them be self-sufficient and hopefully being more then you ever dreamed they could be. But now tonight, here you and her sit at a dining room table with six chairs and stare at each other and those empty chairs seem to say, “What has just happened here?”

As humans we’re unique in the animal kingdom when it comes to rearing our young, as we usually get only one go around. For some, one time is plenty thank you but for others it’s a poignant moment. The end of an era and to my line of thinking, the most important era in the litany of family life. What can be more important then preparing our kids for their life as adults?

For all intensive purposes, we can only teach our young the basics. That often comes along from a time-honored tradition that came from our parents and grandparents. But the world changes everyday and in ways we only dreamed would happen, because we never experienced or even thought of everything they are going to experience today. And so we ask. “Did we cover all the bases or not.” Time will tell and all you can do is say to them. “You know what, I know your anxious to go out there and make us proud but if the roadblocks sometimes seem insurmountable, we don’t burn bridges in this family we just build them stronger. We weren’t just a family for eighteen years, we will always be a family and who knows, next time we talk-- I may be the one asking you for advice.”

WHEN IS WRONG REALLY WRONG?

                                  

I find it so hard to believe how much our lives are impacted by sports and athletes. Now to be sure I watch sports myself and I have my heroes too and I have probably been guilty to some extent of participating in the very thing I’m going to write about. But that doesn’t make it right.

A while back I finished reading a book by Jon Krakauer who is a celebrated author of such books as “Into Thin Air” and “Under the Banner of Heaven.” In this book he chronicles what happened in a community in Montana when a group of college athletes were accused of sexual violence against women. Now sexual violence against women happens everyday in this country so that in itself is nothing new but what seems to be so different, when athletes are the accused, is the amount of support they receive from the team and the community itself, professing their innocence. Yes, seemingly, they seem to be held to a different standard. In reality the colleges are doing a better job every day of holding athletes accountable but outside interests make this very hard for them to do. They are under intense pressure to bend the rules.

Even at the high school level it exists. A few years back I had just returned from Florida and in the community we were staying, several high school basketball players participated in making a disgusting video and then posting it online. The school acted quickly and the players admitted their guilt. They were suspended for several games and the matter seemed to be resolved, until the parents lawyered up and asked that the suspensions be reversed. The athletic careers of their kids were far more important, then setting a good example and doing what was right.

I was once told that no one is above the law but we all know that is not true when you have the money to pay someone to defend you in this country. Justice-- and I use that word loosely, is often times bought. Justice and the truth are not as synonymous in this country, as people would think. The truth becomes, not relevant to a good defense attorney and for the followers and supporters of sports, setting good examples are no longer important either. Krakauer told in his book about a young lawyer and an old lawyer who teamed up on a case. The verdict was set to come in and the young lawyer was sent to hear it. He telephoned the old lawyer after hearing the verdict and said “Justice was served.” The old Lawyer said, “Appeal immediately.”

 I often see Lawyers arguing a point for what seems forever, when you know in your heart that the truth needs no explanation. Say it and stick with it. If we want to be good examples of what is right and what is wrong in sports we need to get the selfishness out of sports. You should win because you are the best team and that means off the court as well as on it. Sports should teach you to be good winners and good losers, because in reality that is how life works also. To the athletes I would say this. You are held to a different standard-- a higher standard. It goes with the territory because when you fail. you fail a lot of people and that is sad.

UPDATE ON THE SUNSHINE BOYS

                                    

I have talked before about this motley group of old men, of which I am one, who get together a few times a week for coffee. We come from many different facets of life, teachers, engineer’s, public safety, military and even a retired banker. Were from all different sides of the political isle and different faiths too. Some of us are married and some are single but the one thing we have in common is we’ve all had a lot of experiences in life that we enjoy sharing with each other. But most of all we have a lot of respect for each other. That respect we have for each other is more important then all of our beliefs, preconceived ideas, or past experiences because in the end—our goal is just to be friends.

What if the rest of the world could operate this way? What a wonderful world it would be. We have found that the place for politics is at the polls and the place for religion is in your homes and churches. Were old men and we have learned that we can be a little grumpy and stubborn sometimes but we also know that to be that way just ostracizes you and so there you sit with your long sad face and no one wanting to talk to you. But if you throw that foolish pride out the window and find that common ground where we can all walk together, then life is so much easier.

Over the years as we have met together, the group has changed many times and as sad as it is to see someone leave; sometimes through death or illness or moving away, there’s always excitement to see someone new come and join us. If nothing more they may have some new jokes. God knows, we need some new jokes.

I believe that this kind of social networking is played out in many other places. Most of them though have a common cause and I must admit if we do have a common cause, outside of friendship, I’m not sure what it is. We have no leaders, no board of directors, no written rules and no real objectives. No one has ever been kicked out or made to feel unwelcome. On the other hand no one has ever been put in charge of anything either so there is a complete lack of authority or organization. If something does need to be organized, Fergie just does it, and were all fine with that. We have no agenda except to be reasonably nice to each other. Meetings are not mandatory and attendance is not taken. There are no applications or qualifications.

We do have a real past roll of honor because we not only don’t forget each other, we don’t forget our passed members either who have gone on before us. It was their character and their spirit that made this thing work for so many years. We only need to emulate what they started and keep this thing going.

So if you’re not busy Monday, Wednesday or Friday at nine in the morning. If you don’t mind wasting an hour of your life you’re not going to get back. If you’re not too thin skinned and have some new jokes, we would love to meet you. We’re at Pine Peaks Café and the waitresses are beautiful and the food is great. Come on in.